CENSORED

Censorship is bad. Period. In my ideal world, anyone and everyone would be able to express themselves however they wanted at any given moment AND most importantly, everyone else would just accept that, deal with it, embrace it, or ignore it. Whatever. But no one would have to censor themsevles for others.

I've been giving this TONS of thought lately because I feel like I am constantly evalutating what I can and cannot say; what I can and cannot do. Gaging how it will be met by others. Oh my gosh! How will they react!? I find this disconcerting because I am out of the closet! I always thought that after crossing that line, I wouldn't have to edit myself, my life, and my beliefs so much. And it's not even mostly about being gay. It's about my political, spiritual, and personal views on life and even my affection for others.

So here is my question to you, blog-voyer. Is it just me? Or does everyone feel like they are constantly abridging themselves to appease others!? I'm honestly sick of it. That's one reason that I haven't been blogging as much lately. Folks rag on my depressed blogs. Well fuck you. Someone else is made 'uncomfortable' by the way I feel. Well fuck you too. And clearly this issue of living and conversing inauthentically crosses over into work and family.

Why is your comfort of greater value than mine?! You react to things in your own way, and I'll react to them in mine. Ok, opressor?

I've just never been that type of person on the inside. Maybe it's partly my fault because I haven't let you know it. Maybe I've enabled others to treat me this way, but from now on: take me or leave me folks. My feelings, my views, my beleifs....they may not align with your thinking, and they may not even be 'right', but they are mine. I'm entitled to them, and I have just as much of a right to express how I feel as you do. My blog. My away messages. My friends. My activities. My views. My affection. My life. No longer will you be viewing the rated version. It's time for the fucking director's cut.